Dancing Oblivion

Jake's House

Visited the house for the first time since the wake. It's painful to look at pictures from the past and know that she was there and now she's not. Strange.

Trust

Apparently I have trust issues...

perhaps it's just that I question motivation. Forgive, never forget, question motives.

ever been

spiraling so fast that every turn brings you further down than up all sense of direction gone no bubbles to follow or light questioning then who does have your best interest in mind not him he negates too often not me too self effacing and the system is just demoralizing the things that matter the most which move close enough for you to touch and smell but too far for you to grab for safety that you can never have because it was denied years ago when you spiraled up sliding around a street sign feeling the tug of reality but happily closing your eyes to the warm sunshine on your face

maybe that's when you died
that's why things seem so good
every year can't get better
no one is that fortunate
except that lady in the west at the nameless diner serving pie happy with the aquanet and anonymity

yep, except her